Sunday, October 5, 2008

Beginnings

Even though I know you are understanding and accepting and very patient, there are times when it’s hard for me to express myself to you.  I know it doesn’t make sense, and I’ve tried to rush myself, but not always to the best results.  I need to feel like I am working through things in my own time and way before I approach you with them.

So as we explore more, I’m going to need a lot of time to sift through things.  I’m also going to need some semblance of distance between us for a little while.  Otherwise it’s too much.  Too close, too much vulnerability, too much accommodation.

I thought it might be good for me to keep a journal for the time being.  I can write things down here that would be harder for me to say to you in person, and you’re not left in the dark.  I don’t know that I’ll always be able to put everything down here, but I’ll try.

 

Love you

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